I decided I cannot be 20 years in this chosen profession and being so shitty at touch typing. I have been training for a month at least 10 minutes per day and I am now slower, but slightly more precise, and definitely quieter on the keys. But it's really something I cannot do well in general, it reminds me of the feeling of frustration I experienced every time I tried to play a musical instrument. It really puts me in a bad mood, as I feel inadequate.