my mood has been shit lately. i'm maxed out on SSRIs and shouldn't go up on Lamotrigine and i'm out of weed. i want to stop feeling like this and i want to hibernate away from everyone and everything. i've been unproductive at work and around the house and i'm stuck in a loop where i feel worse because of it and i don't know how to stop. i need to find a therapist (i stopped seeing my last one because she wasn't working) but don't have the ambition to put in the effort. i don't know why my wife tolerates me