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Depression/mood is awful today. Had a hijacked amygdala today where I freaked out and then felt depressed about it and still haven't recovered. Diving into social media to try and fix things made it work. Been weighing taking a "mental health day" off from work but instead just stayed on but did nothing.

Using gophernicus as my “reference implementation,” I always waste tons of time trying to configure it to use my desired root directory instead of using the macOS config file.

Might fuck around and finish writing my Gopher server today.

It’d be great to not get so tired all the time.

Still waiting on our Google Play store rejection/appeal. So frustrating.

Hey this thing is still here, neat!

Even my weed dealer sent me an email updating me on how they're preparing for and impacted by the covid-19 virus.

Been to hell I spell it, spell it DMV.

Why do I hate working so much? Over the past 6 years, I've had 4 different jobs. It doesn't take long for me to dislike any of them. Why am I so lazy?

Feeling trapped by the generous salary of my current employer and the impending first year of college tuition for my son. I feel like I can't look elsewhere even with a salary cut because the FAFSA is already submitted and it looks back two years. Don't know what to do.

my mood has been shit lately. i'm maxed out on SSRIs and shouldn't go up on Lamotrigine and i'm out of weed. i want to stop feeling like this and i want to hibernate away from everyone and everything. i've been unproductive at work and around the house and i'm stuck in a loop where i feel worse because of it and i don't know how to stop. i need to find a therapist (i stopped seeing my last one because she wasn't working) but don't have the ambition to put in the effort. i don't know why my wife tolerates me

Is Lanyrd no longer a thing? Did anyone ever build a replacement, 'cuz it was kinda useful.

Googling "motivation when depressed"

remember the keke meme? good times.