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Working from home today instead of co-working. Hoping to dodge the almost inevitable crippling isolation and loneliness.

I honestly don't know if I'm suffering from burnout, or if I'm just really depressed again. Probably a little of column A, a little of column B...

Maybe y'all don't. I'm a very old person by Mastodon standards.

Remember downloading stuff like Linux on floppies, and finding the closest FTP mirror to download from?

I’ve been looking for someone more local with a similar style but can’t find it anywhere.

There’s only on tattoo artist in the world who I want a tattoo from but he lives in Berlin (I’m in the USA) and has a two year wait list so I guess I’ll probably go without.

I bet Ray Charles has never even had a Diet Pepsi.

tired of feeling broken all the time. tired of feeling tired and sad. i don't like my job or many of the things about my life but don't feel like i can do anything about it. don't want to be on meds anymore. want to go back to bed. embarrassed. worthless.

I've "quit social media" again which means I'm back on mastodon because it's basically my methadone.

Feeling a lot better this afternoon. Maybe that's light at the end of this tunnel.

From a dealing with depression advice post:

> Any “friend” who resolutely believes that your depression is because you’re lazy, because you’re not trying hard enough, who blames you for not bootstrapping out of it- that friend needs to be cut off."

But what if that friend is your spouse? 😔