jeff bezos's smaller eye 🌹 @md@mastodon.technology

Feeling a lot better this afternoon. Maybe that's light at the end of this tunnel.

From a dealing with depression advice post:

> Any “friend” who resolutely believes that your depression is because you’re lazy, because you’re not trying hard enough, who blames you for not bootstrapping out of it- that friend needs to be cut off."

But what if that friend is your spouse? 😔

Felt better on my walk. Back at my laptop and miserable again. Oh and someone is reporting a bizzare bug with our Android app yay FML.

I should probably try to start working on my Gopher server again. That might be fun.

I've also tried a couple different therapists and stopped seeing them because neither one seemed to be much help. I know I should probably keep looking and try to find another one but it's pretty hard to research another therapist when you can't even make yourself get out of bed.

I should probably increase my meds again but the side effects SUUUCK and I'm so sick of them and I've tried almost all of them.

Fallen into depression pit again. This week has been awful. Trying no alcohol, exercising, getting off social media. Can't make myself work. Wanna sleep. Spouse is sick of my episodes and thinks I'm a lazy mope. Have so much to do at work and not keeping up. Yesterday I slept most of the afternoon instead of working and worked a little at night to try to catch back up.

so tired all the damned time. i'm sure my depression isn't helping matters.

anyway, Brad Delp is currently making me sad.