Trying to figure out and deal with the longer term implication of my family member's passing. I have far more bills now than before. Lots of stuff to figure out regarding belongings. Now that I am the only occupant of this place, there's a lot of rearranging and reorganizing I would like to do over time.
It's so much easier to just work sleep and forget about it all but it's going to constantly hang over me until I start to make headway through it all.
Not to mention the flashbacks, the dreams, the grief
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Imagine driving every day of your life and waking up the next day not knowing how to drive- as if you had never even been in a car.
That's me, except instead of forgetting how to drive, it is forgetting how to live. I had so adjusted to living with someone, us needing each other, etc... that this emptiness and coldness has me feeling lost.
I'm okay, though. This is all probably a normal part of something like this, but it's completely foreign to me.
Both Twitter and Medium share two things in common:
- A business strategy of using developers and apps built on their platform/API to gain critical mass and popularity, and then when they hit their peak, screwing over developers and apps by pulling and stopping APIs and leaving the apps dysfunctional
For about 2-3 months now I've been obsessively listening to retrowave/synthwave type of music.
Here's my favourite spotify playlist for you folks: https://open.spotify.com/user/1216393130/playlist/2gJWRsr9FdcnIURaAneIb1?si=plyrQX8kS4qVabr2GTaVvA
I have found it to improve my focus and code by 120% :P
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she is gone. the light of my life. a grandma that raised me all my life and that i still lived with and took care of.
but... she had been suffering a lot, so i think it was time. it's just not something i could ever be prepared for.
don't worry about me. i am with family, i am at as much peace as i can be (which is not a ton, but ive got a good support system)
family health (-) Show more
this is the worst day of my life
things have gotten worse and very very critical
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so my very close family member that was in the hospital in and out for about 20 days, and has been out since last friday...
got REALLY bad this morning. i'm glad someone was dropping by to take them to an appointment, because... i think they wouldn't have been able to call for help
after hours in ER, now stable in ICU. i think we almost lost them this morning.
this is a reality i've been worrying about for years now. i do not want to lose one of the (if not THE) cornerstone of my life
tea, metal, tabletop, meditation, minimalism, pusheen, webcomics
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