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You know an emotion runs deep when you have an effective dissociative utility and even it falls you.

Deep emotions should be outlawed.

Damnit.

I am feeling really lonely right now.

This week might be worse than I thought it would be.

One year anniversary of being kicked out of a fifteen year marriage... and my kids house and it’s Thanksgiving and T’s out and about and...

... I can’t stop crying. Fuck.

I'm not much for saying "Good Night" anymore... except to my children, 'cuz they really like that shit...

... and most of my nights are, well, a bit on the lonely side and full of pain, so not "good," really. They're just there.

But I'm takin' a break for now.

And seriously, The Pattern is pretty awesome...

... but reading what I read a while ago?

That shit really seriously fucked me up for a solid hour or two or however long it's been from then 'till about 15 minutes or so ago.

Chills to the point of skin-crawlz to the point of am I gonna hurl?

OH HOLY SHIT

An old client called.

He has royalties (hey, the honor system *does* work) and a job that will take at least a few hours of my time, oh HELL FUCKIN' YEAH.

Also: /The Pattern/ is... holy shit the fucker is gonna give me a heart attack, I'm not fuckin' kidding!

I... am really just wanting to find some motherfucking work.

Really, this shouldn't be such a tough thing to do. But this entire year has been... something entirely way too fucked up for me.

Work brings money. Money buys pain relief. Pain relief means I can work on more shit.

UGH. I hate the CHICKEN AND THE EGG.

There's an actual use-case behind this question. There are some groups of people that would like to use something like Mastodon, but it would be best to be prepared for the game of whack-a-mole that would take place.

Yes, running a hidden Tor service (or, rather, a load-balanced or failover one) would probably accomplish the task just fine. But I'm thinking about on the open Internet, without special tools being required. No special software.

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This might sound like a silly question, but...

Has anyone created an implementation of ActivityPub such that multiple hosts (say, in a DNS Round-Robin arrangement or similar) provide a single instance, and all of the nodes are connected to each other using something like WireGuard on the backend?

Censorship-resistance, I can see it being a useful feature. Espcially for places like Switter or other... gatherings that the judgemental frown upon from their holier-than-thou positions of power.

Just a reminder: I'm looking for work.

HTML5/JavaScript/CSS/PHP
C and/or C++ (nearly any type of program)

I usually charge a lot more than this, but I'm hungry soβ€”I'm available for $20 per hour. Contact me here or by email to get started... mike@trausch.us is the one I check the most.

Well, today should be interesting. Getting someone else's kid from the school bus this afternoon, and then heading over to the ex-wife's house to have movie night with my kids. Wonder how they'll all get along...

And speaking of, thank you to Jonas HultΓ©n, once again, for the two donations you made.

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I'm going to reboot my blog, and start writing in it more frequently. And I'm going to put some form of advertising that pays decently *and* plays nice.

In the meantime, though, I'm at the point of having to consider selling my workstation. Like, someone needs to buy it and I might take a lower offer, as long as my immediate requirements of rent are taken care of...

I'm still taking donations... gofundme.com/f/21svinom2o

Been kinda here but not. Broke as hell again. Wanting... more than currently offered and able to offer not as much as I’m capable of when I’m hurting so much that I am distracted mentally a lot. Comes off as I-don’t-care. And other people are cuter and funnier and more attentive.

Maybe I’m a touch jealous but I shouldn’t be. I like his happy voice and I got to hear it tonight but I didn’t make it happen.

I used to be a full person... or have meds to compensate... but not at the moment. πŸ˜”

Anyone want a tread ripper workstation razor keyboard and two 4K 28” monitors.

$2500 USD or 10% more in any cryptocurrency I can give an address for plus shipping

Or shoot just help me get the meds but I hate handouts

I have ceased pain management due to kicking my abusive roommate out. I wish I would have met the person he got it from.

I always find it is more difficult when what is best for you is not as important as what everyone else thinks is best for you, which is often harmful.

In what world is it helpful to feed someone insecurity, unless you’re trying to hurt them...?

Well, it is entirely possible that I'll be able to work within the context of another business.

This is assuming, of course, that this all happens before I'm evicted or otherwise lose my place to stay.

And I REALLY need to get my glasses replaced. I can barely read any damned thing anymore.

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