Been kinda here but not. Broke as hell again. Wanting... more than currently offered and able to offer not as much as I’m capable of when I’m hurting so much that I am distracted mentally a lot. Comes off as I-don’t-care. And other people are cuter and funnier and more attentive.

Maybe I’m a touch jealous but I shouldn’t be. I like his happy voice and I got to hear it tonight but I didn’t make it happen.

I used to be a full person... or have meds to compensate... but not at the moment. 😔