Owl "not-a-good-girl" Jolson @Lofenyy@mastodon.technology

This is where I am in life RN.

Imagine being gay and loving Satan without being exposed to $MUSIC.

Imagine having funny to say.

Wrapping all of my new posts in since it accurately portrays my state.

I'm having one of the worst depressed episodes of my life, if not the worst. I just spent the whole day in bed, only to be woken up to be told that my dad just had a heart attack. It hasn't sunken in yet. This is his second overall.

@trickster @DeeUnderscore I'm watching streamers make fun of Ben Shapiro. Turns out, he once had an interview where he admitted that in his 10 year marriage, he's never made his wife orgasm.

They were laughing, saying that if she has a "wet ass p-word", then there's something wrong with her and she needs to be taken to the hospital.

This is the only thing I find funny enough to be mildly amused. Let me have it.

@trickster @DeeUnderscore

https://invidious.snopyta.org/watch?v=YiYnNmigbmQ

I feel physically awful today. I have zero idea why. Had trouble getting out of bed. I'm irritable. I don't feel like doing anything at all besides eat, and I only feel like eating trash.

I think the reason why I've been so bad lately is because I've subconsciously come to the conclusion that I have absolutely nothing to look forward to. My life in this moment is as enjoyable as it ever will be. I'm already miserable, and everything from here is downhill, so why bother living? What's the point?

If you've thought of an answer to this question, just note that I've probably thought of it first, and have already considered it.