This this is the only forum that I can use to vent anonymously. I need to just get it out so thank you for putting up with it. I've heard that it gets better and I even told people that life gets better when you get down. staying positive does not seem to do me any good and and being negative about things doesn't seem to impact anything in any sense anyway.
So once again if you're just recently following... I had a good job as a security engineer my performance was subpar and I got fired which is okay in some respects however I'm also undergoing some pretty major health problems, some things just don't get better, I will always walk with a cane now every cough or sneeze I have I always think in the back of my head is this the one that's going to cause my brain to explode
I just want my boy to come home from school so I could give him a big hug and he can hug me back and make me feel little bit better. I have to tell him that this Christmas is just gonna be like another day except he gets to stay home from school. we will probably watch movies and play games just like every day too. I don't know if we'll have anything to eat by then I just don't know. Note that I'm not sitting here begging for money. Good thoughts, well wishes and prayers are greatly accepted.
not nearly suicidal, just broken beyond repair.
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